Why? Why don't we have a manual for love? How am I supposed to know how to behave? How do you expect me not to make mistakes? Why is it easier to express in English, but hard as hell in my own language? What has happened to me? I wasn't like this. I've become a monster... A monster which is deeply in love with a beauty, but for whatever reason keeps on hurting her. What should I do? Did you notice how many questions I've just asked? Including this one. Well, guess what? I have thousands more of them stuck in my head. And I don't have an answer to a single one. Fuck it. I'll keep on questioning. Why is love so difficult? How is it possible that the easiest person to hurt is the one you love the most? I know now. I know how I feel. But it's too late. I now realize that it's true that we don't know what we have until we lose it. So, now what? It's too late and I know everything. I know what I shouldn't have done and I know what I should do. Why don't I get another chance to bring happiness in our lives? I know you still love me. And I know I love you. More than anything in this world.. More than ever. You are my everything. I wasn't planning on writing this. It just came to me.. My emotions are a mess. I am a mess without you. Not a single day passes by without me missing you. I pray for us to get back together. I think of so many songs that fit my situation perfectly. I know I've been a fool. But a crazy-in-love one. I hurt you. And you've hurt me too. We've hurt each other so bad in so many ways that I don't even count anymore. Why? I don't want it to be this way. I've enjoyed every moment of us being together. And now we are losing each other over some dumb mistakes made out of foolishness and stubbornness. I can't be without you. I can't imagine my life without you and I don't want to do it in the first place. But I've done everything I could.. People say, if you want something, fight for it. But I'm too afraid to do that. I'm too afraid that I will push you even further away than you already are.. So I have no choice other than wanting, hoping, wishing and praying.. for you to be happy with or without me. I love you so much, it hurts. Goodbye, love.